Weekend Update~

I Spent Saturday Being Angry.

I was angry that Meredith has spent three years being sick and has to try every medicine that exists to try and treat her GERD.  I was angry that after three years (which is her entire life) of being sick and all that we've done, it still wasn't enough to avoid this major surgery. I wondered if in fact, we did try everything possible to treat this...I couldn't think of anything else we could have done.

After I was done being angry, I felt profoundly sad~

Sad for my baby girl, that she has to endure this surgery coming up. She's so little which is good because it's doubtful that she will remember the surgery when she gets older. I'm sad that she can't sleep well, can't eat well, is getting five iv treatments a day, has a yeast infection, hates taking any oral medicines right now, can't tolerate much liquids, and the list goes on.

When I woke up on Sunday, those feelings had passed and I'm back to dealing with the situation at hand. My family needs me to be ok more now than ever. I'm doing my very best to keep things as normal as possible for all of us.